Losing Control

I have been here before. My clothes are fitting tighter. Heck, there are even some clothes in my closet that I am completely ignoring. I am out of shape and unhealthy. The company I work for recently had a wellness fair where I did a "step test" (a step test has you literally stepping for a minute or so and your heart rate is taken before and after to judge your fitness level) and I was embarrassed at how horrible the results were. They also made me step on a scale where I realized that I am the biggest I have ever been in my 28 years on this earth. This overweight feeling does not only effect my wardrobe and my self image, but it makes me lazy - lazier than I have already become over the past few months.

How did I get here? A year ago at this time, I was in the BEST shape that I had ever been in. I originally started working out with my trainer, Joe Conti, almost two years ago. His skills and my dedication brought me to a place where I could wear ANYTHING in my closet and looked for opportunities to show off my strength and control over my body. I had total control - of what I ate, when I worked out and how I felt. Unfortunately, life happened and I lost control. I happens to all of us. I went through a tough break up, had some financial issues, got into a car wreck and lost my father all on one year.  There are no good excuses for losing control, but it happens. I can spend all the time I want making myself feel bad about it, but why focus all of my energy there when I can focus on fixing it?

It has been over three months since I have worked out and it shows. But, I am ready to make a change. Luckily, I still know Joe and now he has his own training gym. Please join me on my journey to take control of my life back through living a better lifestyle; eating good and getting fit! In this blog, I will post tips and tricks that work for me  (any maybe will  for you too) as well as my thoughts, struggles and successes on my path to get back to who I know I can be - healthy and happy!